Sunday, May 10, 2009

kat deluna - calling you

in less than five months, a new lifestyle awaits....

we can never sit pretty on something for so long cant we. but maybe itll be a good change, then again i will appreciate these five months in army that i never thought id enjoy.

i really wish i could have a time machine so that i can trace back those school days, poly days and working days including army days. im just missing many people but i miss you the most for sure. :)

Monday, April 13, 2009

no doubt - stand and deliver

i am addicted. and i have to stop or at least curb that habit.

but i secretly dont wana. :D

Sunday, March 22, 2009

the pussycat dolls - jai ho (you are my destiny)

the song actually makes me wana watch 'slumdog millionaire'. not that there werent enough reasons to catch the movie but all the more reason now.

the saying 'absence makes the heart grow fonder' holds ton of truth to it. i guess its the same as saying 'less is always better'. sure when you spend more time with someone, you get closer to them and you tend to know more. then theres always knowing too much, friction and getting annoyed me thinks. but then thats all part of the process of accepting someone into your life as they get accustomed to your behavior.

on another note, god i have so many bills to pay :(

first the wii, finally got down to getting it during the IT fair, i would like to think i snatched a good deal but even if it isnt, ill just leave it as that and now i gotta get wii's best friend, guitar hero. excited about the purchase but not so much about forking out a ton for it.

drinks - too much partying for a week. having said that, i need to lay off the booze before it gets outta control.

and of course clothes. i cannot believe i spend that much on online shopping. so help me god if the purchases do not fit, im gona be extremely sad.

and im supposed to save up for a trip at the same time. :S

Friday, March 13, 2009

nelly furtado - why do all good things come to an end

saying goodbyes will always be tough but theyre inevitable.

we move on to bigger and better things, or at least thats what we'll like to think with an open mind. when its time to bid farewell, we start to cherish the moments, be it good or bad. too little too late it always seems.

Friday, February 27, 2009

brooke white - hold up my heart

you know what gives you a whole load of time to think? staying in camp does and id like to think that im a firm believer of that saying...

had my uncle not brought my mum, my sis and i to church, i dont think i wouldve been able to meet so many nice people along the way whom all have guided me along my faith back then although i will admit shamelessly that my faith has depleted a ton if not all.

had my parents decided not to shift from jurong to choa chu kang at year five of my primary school, i wouldnt be the slightest 'religious' and more cultivated to mass services and holy hymns in st anthonys. i wouldnt know that jurong was such a 'notorious beng/lian' area as well and that the residents of choa chu kang love to travel all the way down to town since the buses are always packed as hell. i wouldve probably still remained as a good boy since i only started learning the bad vulgar languages from the girls back then.

had i not scored so average (or low, if you must) for my PSLE, i wouldnt have enrolled myself into assumption english and would probably be in some normal stream in a boys school. but if it wasnt for assumption, i wouldnt have met lui yee, cheryl, andy, hidayat, yuan jin, apple, lilia, darren and some of the other few that i still hold so dearly to my heart.

had i not done so poorly in my prelims, i wouldnt have got into millenia institute which i then dropped out after two weeks because i became so lazy and stubborn to be accustomed to a school all over again. one of my regrets i would say cos i think had i stayed on, i would stayed in yishun junior college after.

had i not screwed up my JAE selection and understood the simple instructions of how to go about applying the schools for my tertiary education, i wouldnt have ended up in yishun junior college for four days, got into nanyang polytechnic only to withdraw before school term and desperately appealing myself into a course that i was never a wee bit interested in ngee ann polytechnic.

but had i not got into ngee ann polytechnic, i wouldnt have made the frenemies. yes im refering to enemies-turned-into-friends like annette and daphne. i didnt think i would be talking to either of them come two years later but every once in a while you start reflecting why did you carry out certain actions you did in the past. and i have to blame it on being immature at that point of time whether it was a personality clash or stubborness on my part then. even though it took a while, and i mean towards our last year, im glad im still in contact with the guys annette, deepa, daphne, yuneng and xavier. those poly years wouldve been so mundane without you all.

had i not gone through tertiary education in ngee ann polytechnic, i wouldve never met the colleagues at asknlearn during my internship. even though we dont keep in contact anymore and though time there was miserable, it was a learning experience into the working industry then. it was that, that allowed me to have time to search for part time jobs at ing asia bank as a data entry and customer service officer at borneo motors. cant say i enjoyed my job fully at the former company since it was at the CBD area and most if not all would know that its daunting to be mixing with the age group over there but it was a real eye opener. however the time spent at borneo motors was a blast and that was the time when i knew i would choose job satisfaction over money anytime. thank you alan, angie, felicia (s), suhaimi, gerard, siti, katherine and john for all the wise teachings. i learnt a whole lot and was really loved by the colleagues there. i guess that was why i didnt wana leave but i was about to start a whole new other journey in the army.

had i not started army in september, i wouldnt have landed myself in pegasus company which im glad i did. at least it wasnt ninja or some torturous company that seeked pleasure in punishment. when they say you meet all kinds of people in army, trust me when i say it is entirely true. it is good exposure regardless because you learn how to work, trust and be wary of such characters. the time spent in tekong may have been difficult to get used to in the beginning but it gradually got better each time with all the marching practices, outfield exercises and mind-blowing tests. if i could have it my way i wouldve like to have at least six months of time at tekong but then again it all depends on the type of company that you have and i wouldnt have traded mine with zul, joel, alvin, jonathan, chokky, rabot, glenn, krishna, zuo yang, cheng yang, kumar, eric, conan, clement, justin and a few others during those three months.

had i not got diagnosed with bells palsy just two days before my POP in tekong in december, i wouldnt have got kicked out of course for my stay at stagmont the first week. and it was the defining moment in my NS life i gotta say. it is because of that condition that i find myself where i am right now. and i used to be really ungrateful about it thinking about the different possible places where i would be right now but i along with many others are trying to be grateful of the things we have in life at present.

had i not got kicked out of course, i wouldnt have got posted to signal institute as a temp staff where i met people like chun he, jeremy, bryner, isaac, alvin, sgt daphne & sgt kevan whom all made my stay in SI really pleasant till the point where i hated the idea of going back to course in march 2008.

had i not gone for my signal operator course in march i wouldnt have met people like kim sua, jeraj, li wei, tian seng, darrell, jason, william, jacksen, ivan (s), bradley, yang, willy, yuk wai, elson, dion and many others. we had a small platoon size and im glad it happened that way because it was so much easier to get to know one another. i just wished the duration of the course wouldve been longer because at least to me i felt like everything started to get better towards the end.

had i not ended my operator course around april/may 2008, i wouldnt have participated in operational exercises with some of the units as well as the SAF day parade where people like robert, hui wei, winston, yew wee, nantha and zifu made it all much less tense, funny as hell and enjoyable all at the same time. the rotating shifts were exhausting but that period of time was really relaxing and we all didnt want it to end.

had those 'prostitute-like-moments' not took place, i wouldnt have ended up in SI where i am today. i used to loathe going back seeing some of the faces which i dont get why now reflecting back; so much angst back then i think - out with that i hope. many would say the reorganizaton that took place once i went back sucked, but it was that, that gave me my appointment and my job. even though the job you have is so relaxing, at times there just isnt that job satisfaction that you wana achieve. nevermind about that since people would say ''its just the army". whether it is, you wana make the best out of every situation you find yourselve in and i guess thats probably the reason why i find myself staying in these days because who knows when you get to find yourselve 'living' with people like samuel, xuan hong, kenneth, nicholas, anthony, chien chi, zhilong and wee kiat. cliche as it always sounds, these people make the everyday-working-life less tense.

so if every one bit of that had changed, the kane wouldnt have been the same. but i guess maybe it wouldve been better to have a few changes here and there but nevertheless thats not the point, as far as im concerned, this whole entry is just going to be purely on appreciation.

call it emotional bullshit if you must but thank you to the people ive met along the twenty one years cos i feel like i gotta constantly remind myself to be grateful of what has happened. doesnt help when ive a mind that works like a eighty year old.

Thursday, February 26, 2009

leona lewis - run

five hours of sleep is what ive been surviving on always. dont get me wrong i love sleeping but i dislike arranging time for it if that makes any sense. it has to be spontaneous as and when im feeling tired.

come saturday, its the end of february and correct me if im wrong when i say that time has been moving pass really fast. so much so that i wish i could put it on standstill. everyone in the army probably wished the other way and i guess im only saying this because right at this point of my life, im supposed to finally get down to decide the type of study or work path that i wish to take. no i still dont have an answer yet and im still searching... and the thought is scary.

okay so this is going to be so random on record but lately ive been finding myself not accomplishing so much in life be it the small or big ones. i think its the constant fear of things that acts as a hindrance to many of them. dont you just wish you had a miracle pill to take away such troubles.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

lilly allen - the fear

i cant describe how much i hated every passing hour the past two days. from getting a new computer to not being able to connect them until the very next day to make a trip down back to the same building and not having them work again.

if this is the type of customer service that im gona get, all i can say is that they jolly well get ready to suffer the wrath from me. if i who once worked as a customer service officer got screwed up down left right, im sure i picked up a few of their nasty habits. but that side of me will come up only when i think its required when theyve crossed the boundaries of not doing a proper job of sales and service.

yes screw you challenger. you should be glad i stopped there and then because i was ready to go on for another hour and demanded more. oh and thats not all, starhub can just wait in line too, they had it coming. for making me pay my monthly bill only to receive selective text messages. if they wish to play scam game, the public oughts to know about it and i will gladly do their free promotion.

sure i feel sorry for the customer service officer who is taking the fall for the company, so if they cannot do anything about it, fair enough direct me to someone whos able to assist me in it. id really like to hear their explanation and it better be something substantial.

angst aside, i can continue that on them another day. im feeling bittersweet about my computer purchase because firstly now i have a lcd tv in the room to equip the wii that we planned to get but now im stuck using a cpu with a vista os that ive heard numerous problems about. damn technology sometimes, i cant keep up with that race.